-I was feeling so under siege at the beginning of my quiet time this morning...under the weight of all my failures...rejections...all that same-old, same-old swooping over me... pushing me down. I was writing out my familiar boo hoos when I suddenly stood up and started walking around...begging the Holy Spirit, my Friend and Rescuer to help me. Within seconds, I felt Him tell me to bunch up what I had written and to take it to the sink and BURN it....CREMATE it actually...and give that old self a "decent burial." After I did just that...smoke still rising from the ashes in the sink...He gave me this word:

+Oh yes, My beloved....you have had quite a spirit journey this morning as the self pity rushed over you and you succumbed for a while. But in a moment of clarity, you fought the good fight and called on your Rescuer for help. The moment you stood up on the inside and called for help was definitely a sign of progress....but really you're beyond all this now. You are at a point where you no longer can act like a child who forgets her basic ABC's. You know the truth and you can not allow yourself to go back to that place where you wallow in a victim mindset. I led you to look up the definition of "wallow" and it was most instructive.
As a verb, it means:
1). to roll about or lie in water,dirt or mud (for refreshment!)
2). To live self indulgently.
3). To flounder about; move along or proceed clumsily or with difficulty.
4). To surge or billow forth as smoke or heat (does that need explaining?)
As a noun, it means:
1). The act of wallowing.
2). The place animals wallow and
3). The indentation produced by wallowing!!!
The dictionary makes it abundantly clear. So, don't wallow! When you indulge in this faith-destroying activity, your freedom is compromised. You turn to these familiar woes....wallowing in the disappointment for 'refreshment' and wind up stuck in a hole with more reasons to be sad.  This is self indulgence! It makes your spirit earth-bound so it moves with difficulty. It darkens your mind with the black smoke of confusion and leaves your spirit unable to breathe. It also leaves an indentation...leaving a kind of gully that can be difficult to get out of! You don't want to get  stuck believing all the lies you're rolling around in do you? 
Fortunately, your Father loves you too much to let you wallow! Instead.... you find yourself gently chastised by His tender Love! The question He puts to you is this: do you want to be free? If so (and I know it's so) you cannot go to this familiar and false place that does anything but refresh. You need to get tough with these emotions! They are all based on LIES and you must treat them as such! Feelings are not truth. I am leading you into All Truth and the Truth (and nothing but the Truth) will set you completely FREE. So, you must always be on guard. You know the enemy's tactics. You must be acutely aware of the random thoughts you are thinking. Remember, this indentation is very familiar and even deceptively comfortable. But enjoying this momentary unbelief (and that's what this is - unbelief) is not an option! Remember....without faith it is impossible to please God....and I know your heart's desire is to please your Father. Of course, because of His inordinate indulgence and generosity, He constantly gives you a growing measure of faith. After all (and before all!) He is the Author and Finisher of your faith. In every test, all you have to do is say 'yes' to Him and 'no' to the lies. So....which shall it be My love? No comparison, right? Do you want the place of clumsiness and impaired vision, where you move with difficulty OR the wide and spacious place of freedom, purchased just for you? Your smile shows Me which you chose!
This has been an interesting little graduate course this morning, hasn't it? "Mind of the Spirit - 101". How critical it is that you learn these most important lessons of faith! You are called to walk....live and revel in the Spirit. You cannot go back to your old ways. Rejoice My love. This is going to be a good day.....and if the Father gave out grades....you'd get an A+.