- Lord, teach me how to love people I don't feel comfortable with, people I find dull, people I find annoying. Tell me how to live You and be true to myself.


+ You know Me, My love. You know that each person I bring into your life is very precious to my heart, so your impatience with and unloving response to them go against the Father's heart.But I know you already know that. I also know that you don't want to feel these feelings and that you have reached out in love and sought to bless them.

Here's the point you want clarity on. There will always be people you naturally gravitate towards...those who are so easy to be with, where all self-consciousness flies out the window. I felt that with John. I knew he'd never let Me down. He "got" Me. The rest of my followers varied. Peter, who was clumsy, unthinking, rash, weak was certainly not John, but I loved him just the same. I looked past all that he wasn't and loved who I knew he had in him. Other disciples fought over who'd be greatest...pushed the children away (Goodness! Didn't they know My heart for children?) etc. etc etc.

My point is clear, honey. John had a relaxed and natural relationship with Me, but with the others, there were occasional  conflicts. I even had to tell Peter "Get behind me satan!" That was a bit of a tense moment! 

What you need to embrace (and I use that word intentionally) is that your relationships are not to be based on how YOU feel about those I've brought into your life. They are to be based on how I feel about them. The free and easy friendships are gifts that are dropped into your heart as sheer joy (also to remind you of your best, truest self). The harder ones are your chances to watch the Father's heart at work in your heart, despite your feelings. As you have learned in every major friendship of your life - feelings come and go! Weaknesses and warts emerge. No one is without them... and even the best relationship will have to stand the test of the innate selfishness and flaws of human nature. That's where I come in! This is where the Holy Spirit shines! You cannot muster up feelings of love, camaraderie and enjoyment, but with the Holy Spirit's help, you can love despite your feelings... despite the judgment that sits like a cruel master ready to pounce. You can be the Love of God, even when you are the weakest, least graceful one in the group. The key is to ignore your feeling... throw judgment our the window and COME TO ME... right then - right there - while you are not enjoying those you are with. In your heart of hearts STOP - REPENT (have another thought ) and  IGNORE YOUR FEELINGS. DROP ALL MEASUREMENT AND ASK ME TO HELP YOU LOVE! These are exercises designed to lead you into that spacious place where you will never feel that constriction again. Judgment and measurement constrict you because you know what you're feeling and it makes you feel like a hypocrite. Running to Me and seeking My Love for these people bring RELEASE and JOY. You see how you can learn to ignore your myopic, limited assessment of people (something you need to learn to do at all times) and turn to the Holy Spirit for true vision... for Him to reveal the TREASURE. Suddenly your trying time has become a fun challenge. The point, My love, is NOTHING IS WASTED. I can show up and transform EVERY moment and EVERY relationship of your life. Meanwhile, the easy friends are the dessert....delicious and sweet... that you are meant to treasure and enjoy.